210909 mummy moon's birthday

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to mummy moon,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

*HUGS*


I was very happy!!! One stone kill two birds at a time! Got to see my dad at the midnight, and got to see mummy moon in the afternoon!! When my dad used both of his hand to hold and touched my face, i will think of ah bu. And when ah bu hold and touched my face, i will think of my dad! Both of their lectures and words are either the same or similar!!! So cute!!!

They just simply made me behave like a small little girl who like to cry, throw tantrum, draw attention and even stick to them!! It was so sweet!!! I was like never being or long long time never being treated in this way, nearly could not even know what's all this!! ^o^

How I wish everything can be stop at this moment, so tt there won't be any changes, and everything will be remain the same. If there's a time machine existing, I would like to go back to the past to stop and prevent all those unhappy things happen. But there's one thing tt i would not like to change and prevent is to know u... Mummy Moon... =P I love ya... muackz....

PS: I was very happy and enjoying this afternoon. This is my first time eating korean food, thks u, LD & MM... ^_^ Lucky i did not appeared to be a light bulb... Hehe...

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Today is a damn bad day for me! Everything come at once! Especially those irritating thing and ppl will definitely come to u when u are totally down. They will definitely says something which is very bad to provoke and upset u!

Damn! I really hate and mad at myself for being blank when being scolding by tt irritating bastard uncle at my back! I shld have open my mouth and scold him!! I even walked one round blindly at ION after leaving the lift straight toward there!! What the hell i was doing?! My anger just could not let go, it was just running in my body but just could not vent out! I really hate it very much! Idiot!! I curse and swear tt bastard!! Don't ever let me bump onto him, otherwise i will triple times return back to him! Since he like to rush, as if rushing to the hell, den i will let him rush toward!!!

I own u nothing now... ever since long long time ago, and plus u've injured mi.. I am pain, but not as pain as my heart. I find myself like an idiot, shouldn't have giving out so much feeling. Being good to a person doesn't mean have to say out. Is tt wrong? Is it very difficult to trust and have faith on me? Am i really giving ppl a so unsecure feel? I am really very sick n tired of it already. From now on i will be very caution and not to treat other ppl good easily.

I've learnt to treasure thing tt i care lots after lost my loves one by my side, i no longer afford to lose anymore. All this are really very important to me, i will use all of my energy and means to protect it despite how tedious and tired it could be. Those who does not really believe me, i will just leave it.

PS: Thks for cheering me up, mummy moon. U've made my mouth curved and my heart very warm when i feel very down. Luckily I've controlled myself hard and very well, especially when i came bk from waistma. I like ur present, and all of the thing tt u've given me. Don't forget tt u still own me a hug... Here's my hug for u.... *HUGS*

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Instead of meet Patient goh, i've met Shiling. We've been OC, ION and lastly to Bistro Cafe @ Fulleton Hotel there to visit her supervisor Wang. After tt we headed down to amkc there for sushi. This time round we've finished 21 plates of sushi in a plently of time. We were like hungry ghost like tt, cos we've only taken a small bowl of laksa cost @ 5 bucks @ ION. LOLS!

I was extremely sick of my family and home. I will never have a peace, almost everyday sure there's something to go on. I am really looking long forward for the long lost warmest from them. I've like being an empty soul seeking for a very minor and ordinary concerning from my closest ones. Yet somehow it was like an nonsense and bullshit to me! I could only found those thingy from my frens! It was damn ridiculous and funny isn't it?!

Another 5 days and 15 days to go... x_x


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At last finished the stock take lor...!!!
I'm so sad and heart pain pain when i see mummy's si cheng look. Her back and gastric was so painful since this morning, yet i just can't do anything. I really hate to hear she said tt sentence again...! It's make me feel tt i am so useless, can't even give her a hand.

I was thinking if i am not tt stupid just like my cousin who only took 7 months to take her driving license, tt would be great... Unlike now... I've already took so many times of the test, wasted so much of my time!!! When i've found something tt would make mi work hard and forward for it, i find myself even more stupid and useless. Otherwise i would not have to see mummy take cab home alone, yet i can just do nothing but to see her go away in front of me. I am really really really very scare to hear something bad from her when she is on the way home again...!!! My heart just simply could not rest at ease! Really really really hate myself!!! MAD!!! ARGHSSSS!!!!


Another 8 days and 17 days to go... Sighx... =~(


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Another 9 more days to mummy's birthday^^^ and... Another 18 more days later she will be transfer to another store... It's seem like no matter how hard tt i tried to cope with the time, it was still like not enough. Time are running out arh...!!! Silly me... >,<

Tml doing stock take arh...!!! Gonna face "SLL" the whole day instead of facing ah bu...!! SIANZ!!! -_- Hopefully i can finish everything as early as i can, so tt can go over and help her... Really hate to see her "si cheng" look, especially when she shoot me the sentence again...!! LOLS!! Aiyo... really could not imagine hows the day like when she's not ard at there anymore.. Some how when i feel really very down and unhappy, my mouth will curve whenever i think of her... thks mummy... *hug* i know i love face very much, but i will bring myself to tell u in someday.. okie... =p

Sighx... Kanna put aeroplane by patient goh again!!! Expected!!! DAMN!!! I shldn't have purposely requested not to work on tt day!!! This will be the last time!!! Arghhhsss!!!

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Sound funny right...? U accompany me to the hospital and see doctor, i accompany u back to the hospital and see doctor. Lols! Well, my heart was really very pain when i heard tt u fell down from a ladder. Whenever i think of if i could have help u to pack the stock room, u would not have fell down. It makes me very x3 guilty... It must be really very painful right...? Hopefully it was just an external injury, otherwise i really will .............

At last we gonna met up on 8 sept, and i finally got to give the "mp3" to u! It took me few nights to search and load the song siaz... Lols... No matter what does it cost, i am willing to use anything for exchange! I am really very enjoy and happy especially when i see u act cute and smile sillying starring at me. Haha!

Thank for letting me to be the first one to know tt u will be transfering out soon... Well... i admit tt i was indeed really very sad when u told me, but i feel even more happy for u as u will not have to bear with those unnecessary acts and anger by those xiao ren.

But never did i expect tt it will come so fast... really... i really dun bear it, although i did not mention... I worry tt u will be even more busy after tt, and might even forget abt me...? Or we might not be like now anymore or even lesses...? I trust u all along, and i never ever doubt on u, but i just can't stop myself from having this kind of thinking...! I am very silly right...!?

Yup, i admit tt i love face, and i would rather prefer to do den say. But do u know tt how much i wanted to tell u lot of my feeling and thinking from my heart? I really find myself so irritating...! I am so sorry...

Time flies fast without knowing... can we be even more happy den usual b4 u going over??? I will be missing u and all the thing tt u've done for me. Thank.. a million of unspeakable grateful and thankful come from the deeper bottom of my heart... "Wo zhen de hen gan dong ye hen gao xing, xie xie ni, ah bu...!! Muackx!!" Will we still have the chance of meeting up?

I am really looking forward for the day of 15 sept...! I am meeting patient goh to town, gonna accompany him to but his tkd uniform!! Hopefully this time round he won't put me aeroplane, otherwise i m not gonna to meet him anymore...