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Happy belated birthday (23rd of july) to my big bro and happy birthday (25rd 0f july) to my cousin Cherie!!! May all of ur wishes come true!!!

Yesterday was a long day for me, but yet i was very happy and enjoying working. Reason? It was because of i feel very warm and sweet, i've found my long lost feeling! Even though i was tired and sleepy, but I would rather spend the time with you even just have some very common and causal talking rather den slping. I wanna treasure the time and everything i could have now!!! Never ever let the same thing happen to me again!!

Don't ask me why i would behave like this, coz i just simply dunno why! I never ever treat my mum in this way b4! After so many years, i already could not remember tt kind of feeling. You just simply came into my life and re create this feeling in my heart. Whenever i think of it, i would even smiles silly. Thanks... *Hugz*

This morning cluster meeting at USQ had already announced and confirmed who will be transfer to the other store among our cluster. Although i don't bear ah moi go over there, but i will still be happy for her. Who know this might be a chance for her to promote? Anyway i will still miss her and the time we had been worked together.

I would like to congratutation to KN also... In future i will not have to listen to her complaining abt her kaka anymore... lols... I could see tt AT was sad when she learnt tt she will be swap with KN. But anyway this might not be a bad thing for her, at least she can grab this chance to practice her cashier over there. I will try my best to guide and help her when she need, hopefully she will get use to it very soon.

I meet yijin and shiling this afternoon at BJ8 after the cluster meeting and shiling's school. I feel very sorry for keeping yijin to wait for so long, i could see tt she was really very tired already. I had already set my alarm clock at 12pm, but i still could not wake up when my alarm rang... i was very giddy and blur, really can't help and i simply fell bk to the bed... >,<
PS: jin, i am really very paisei arhx... next time i will not make u wait for me anymore... i will make sure u have an enough rest first b4 i ask u out...


We went to Hazgen Daz at upstair to eat "fondue" ice cream set after several turning around the mall... No suitable timing and movie for us at J8, so we headed down to amk hub hopefully there's other movie at suitable timing at there. Well.. It was still the same at amk hub cathy, the timing is either too early or late. At last we had given up... We went to shop around till 8pm plus, den headed toward to Suki Sushi for dinner.

Our dinner and chatting session ended around 10pm. Hopefully our next gathering we can make it to Newton, the cafe which yijin recommended. I wanna catch Louis koo's latest movie!!! Big ling and jin, u girls gonna occupy one full day for me!!!

Mother, thks for the chocolates u had given to me! I really like to eat it very much! I feel so sweet when eating it, although it was a bitter dark chocolate. HEHEX! Glad tt u like the calcutor, actually it was specially bought by yijin. That silly girl just refused to let u know. Anyway if u should consider taking her as ur daughter in law seriously if u really wanna get for ur son. HEHEX! I miss to eat oyster eggs with u and aiya lor dao!!! HAHAX!! Wanna make u eat more to become chubby!! =X

Ba po, i had already asked u to give up finding the shoes for me, but i really din expect tt u were still finding. You are just so stubborn lor... especially ur bloody mouth... i can only make u reveal more thing in the middle of the night... You really make me love and hate u very much, u know... lols... Anyway... thank a lot... really lot of thankful and countless grateful came from my heart... *HUGZ*

I sms patient goh just now... I asked him how was his fever already... Lucky his fever is okie already, now just caught with some cold... I was just very concern of his condition, i asked him better don't go to work tml if still don't feel very well. I asked him to put on a jacket if feel cold, as it was a little bit windy tonight... Surprisingly he replied me some words like i was very nice, his gf never like tt say this to him b4, i was like his gf, and i wanna be his gf issitx? Sometime i really doubts on wat he was saying... What was actually on his mind? Does he really mean it what he had told me b4? Is he dilemma now just like mi?




This is ah bu choose for me... I like the print very much... Keep recalling how ah bu said she had actually choosen this for me and she let me choose between the other 2 prints... hehehe....



Ba po, thks... I really din expect tt i will be able to own this pair of shoes...



Ah bu gave me to eat just now in the stock room...



Ah bu put it on my bag and asked me to go n see last night... ^_^

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Happy birthday to MS TAM KAI NEE, my dear BA PO!!!! LOLS!!!! I guess u must be enjoying with ur boyfriend in KL now bahz....!!! HAHA! Hopefully u don't argue with him over some small issue... U should be happy and enjoying ur very special day with ur love one, okie?

Anyway i had already found out ur birthday long long time ago, it was just tt i was pretending dunno, okie? Coz i was really cannot stand ur bloody mouth and stubborness, issitz really so difficult for u to tell me personally when's ur birthday huh? Don't u know tt u have own me many words? Don't ever think tt u just sms me all those words and just deem tt u had already said so okie...!

I'm not gonna let u off so easily... i should have pretended tt i was still mad at u, so tt u will enjoy urself at KL without thinking of me. Wait till u have back to work, and when u open the drawer and saw the present which i've placed there, how would u feel?

I really dunno wat made me told Mother all of my unspeakable secret...? We went for dinner together on friday after i had punched out... She had been like comforting me and want me to have a positive thought, dun always get involve into my family affairs. She even shared with me some of her thingy b4 and after she had married. When she was toking to me, i hardly pressed myself to unseal my secret... finally i've told her everything... She was shocked... She enlighted me and the more she hope tt i will think the future for myself..

I met mother ytd at amkc after she had visited her mum... We went for shopping after she went to singtel shop for some complaining issue... This is our very first time shopping together.. the feeling is damn special yet sweet... She even insisted to pay for me my shampoo too... She is really very mother...

We took bus to market after a while, her husband aka my aiya godpa was waiting for her at the carpark... They ordered my stall teo chew porridge to eat after tt... Mother dun believe tt i know how to make coffee and tea, and she want me to make teh si for her... But too bad lah... The uncle was around, it was not very nice for me to walk in and make... How i wish badly tt i can make it for u to drink specially leh...

Funny to know tt both mother and i like to eat hao jian, but we only eat the egg instead of the oysters!! Hahaha! I said she copy me again, surprisingly aiya godpa also agreed with me... Mother said daughter and father used to be closer...! Hehee! So cute of them...

I accompanied mother went to buy newspaper after meal. She've bought a pack of pockey for my niece. She really likes children very much... I walked with her to the car park and waited for aiya godpa there... After a while aiya godpa came over with 2 bags of durian... He passed one pack to me.. I was very paisei and i even said i dun eat.. lols... They insisted me to take, mother even said tt i was just pretending as i dun eat... hehe...

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I have been sick for the past few days, and i had already went to see doctor. Dare not take too much flu and fever pills, cos it will make me feel very giddy and blur. Mother even nearly cancelled off all of my this week working schedule, coz she want me to rest more in order to get well. I am very happy and grateful for her goodwill, i just simply feel very very sweet in my heart. Thank u, my dear ah bu and "ai ya godpa"! You all really make me feel so warm when i really feel like having tt kind of love from family. I am really very touch =~)! But lucky i insisted to go back to work today, cos bj2 shocked of cashier! Really cannot imagine how they are going to survive if i did not went back for work today. Bleahs!

Patient Goh sms me just now... He asked whether i am free for this coming sunday food fair at tampiness? At that moment i was kinda of dunno shld be happy or upset? I admit tt i was mad and upset that he left me out to accompany his gf, at the other way i was happy that he would still think of me. Damnx! wats wrong with me now?! I used to be alright ever since before the incident!!!

Shall i go with him on this sunday? I shall never ever let him know tt i was mad abt he put me aeroplane. SIGHZ!!!! =(

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I was happily to welcome, the seem to be long but short await day to arrive, Tampines food fair with patient goh. I had been waiting for his reply of his comfirmation time with me for the whole day. At last i could not control of myself contacted him. I sent him an sms and he did not reply, so i called him. At first i was thinking he might still haven't knock off from work, so he did not reply me. But i was wrong, he said he was outside now, tts y he havent reply me yet. Well, its fine. What really upset and disappointed me is he said he need to keep his girlfriend accompany tml, and why not we meet on sunday instead? What the HELL!!! What he treat me for?!!! He was the one who asked me out, and now he was the one who said he need to keep his gf accompany!!! How can he treat me like this even though is just a fren?!!?!

I am really upset and mad over this...! At the beginning i was actually still hesitate whether i should go or not, but after a second thought, i woke myself up hardly! Why should i make myself so miserable!? I sms him after that telling him that i am not going on sunday. I think he might not even know or bother if i was angry or wad?!! SHIT!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!! I REALLY HATE IT!!!!!!!!! FROM NOW ON PLS JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!! PLS DUN EVER COME N PROVOKE ME IF U NEVER WANNA LIKE ME, OKIE!!!!!!!!!

Now i am telling myself don't ever have any fastasy thinking toward this ISSUE anymore!!! That's ENOUGH!!!! I am a human being who has a feeling too!!! PLS!!!!

010709 A shift @ BJ2, went to expo after work

I went to Expo after work with Kainee today. Basically we were there for some shopping, but in fact our main purpose was to there to see "mother", especially me, and yes, i really miss her very much, although i don't admit! LoLx!

Agnes was the first person who i saw at the fair. The first thing she asked me was "looking for your mother arhx? she was at the back of the storage space there doing some stuffs". My reaction was stunted and blur, i replied "huh?".

Kainee came over after that, we were browsing around and talking about "mother" then. Who know our dear "mother" was actually blocked by the shelving in front of us! We actually saw a very familiar face and attire when browsing the top shelving clothes by moving it! We quickly let go of our hands of the clothes immediately and laughed out loud silly when we knew its her!! Just after a few second, "mother" shifted the clothing away a bit with an allowance, and she looked out from there and looked at us. We were shocked and laughing silly. She walked out from the storage space there after talking to us from that tiny space. Our reaction was damn funny! Never ever expected "speak of the devil" will happen on us. LOLS.

Mother looked very tired, and her face was pale. My heart was pain for seeing her like that. There was even some bruised on her arms, i was expected and i had told kainee before hand. We accompanied mother and agnes for dinner after that. Kainee purposely voluntee to share with mother mee hun, or else she wanted to eat bread only. She was really crazy, already worked until so tough and tired, yet she still wanna starve herself. SIGHX!

We went off around 9pm plus. I dropped at Bedok with kainee, and she accompanied me to the bus stop which near her house there to take bus 45. When i took out my phone and look at it, there was a missed call from Patient Goh. I called him back and asked him where he was at? He told me he just knocked off from work, we ended our conversation after a few mins talking. Actually i had already sms him when i was at expo, i was thinking of perhap we could meet or whatsoever after i left expo, since i would be heading toward bedok after expo. Well... Anyway just forget it ~ We will be meeting on this coming saturday =)

Kainee put the white colour watch onto my bag without my awareness. She actually went back to bugis street just to buy the watch after i had boarded the train. She just simply think that i look nicer on that white colour watch, therefore she bought it for me although i had already bought the same design red colour watch. And i finally know what was the reason why she keep asking me regarding of the colour of the watch i like on the msn at that midnight.

I am not used to wear/buy white colour watch was becoz of i afraid that it will get dirty easily, and it will turn yellowish after a while. It heart pain when seeing it, especially if it was the one u like it very much. Anyway i truly appreciate and feel grateful of her goodwill, of coz not only for that, and also for everything she has tried to treat me. At the same time i would also like to apologise to her if can.. Honestly, i just could not get used to what she has been done to me, although she mean no harm. I was just thinking that i does not deserve for her to treat me in that way. Don't ask me why, coz i just don't what's the reason. Sighx




I had just received a letter from Ministry of health, it was regarding of the organs transplant after death. There was a red and yellow form to be filled up and send back, i filled up the yellow form which is argee with the donation upon of my death without a second thought. I was thinking as i hardly and have not done any good thing, this could be the most you yi yi thing that i can do after my death. My left eye has been like "yi zhi tiao", and i heard before it was not a good sign if is left eye. Who know i may being run down by a car tml? LOLS.