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Merry Christmas~!~!~!
How does you guys spend ur christmas? LOLS...
Must have had a lot of fun and had received a lot of presents bah!!!

I did not celebrated the christmas as usual for the past 21 years. Just only had some mini christmas party celebration at working place, and that's it. I had received a couple of presents from my colleagues. I guess the ever best of the present that i've received on the past 21 years is got to know MM. Just only her will do, i don't need any other thing else.

I was being invited to her house on tuesday, she personally cooked steamboat. That was my first time been to her house after knowing her for quite sometime. At first i still thought that i was dreaming! I got to see her on her big size kiong maid uniform, her true self without make up, her room, her darling fragrance little pillows, hello kittys and wedding photo. I was glad that his son was actually ok with me to get close with her, at the beginning i still worried and afraid that he might get jealous. Overall, the most happiest is got to eat the food that she personally prepared... Although the soup was from those instant package, but that's not the point... The next time round i wanna order the fish meat noodles that my mum used to buy for steamboat to let her try...

Today is my second time of visiting her house. This time round i took the bus from ang mo kio hub bus interchange, and managed to find the place in the end. I was very happy and satisfied! But my heart was pain when i saw MM's left leg... She fell down from the escalator when she was rushing to take the mrt on tuesday. Lucky she was wearing a jeans, otherwise i really could not imagine how serious the wound could be! Oh! Thank god!! Her leg was only just some scratches which was caused by the edge of the escalator, and a big patch of bruises. How careless and clusmy she was... At last my heart can be rest at ease for seeing her leg was not as bad as i think...

MM cooked for me lunch and dinner today. I was very happy! I felt so happiness when i peeked at her cooking! What made me most touching was, she brew chinese herbal Dang Gui soup for me. She purposely went to the market this morning with the pain of her leg... Don't know why i felt very touching and bad when i got to know about this. I was very happy and touching, but i just simply don't know how can i express it out. I've never tried to have this in my life, not even my mum. Sound very funny and exaggerate, but its true!

I rubbed MM's leg twice for her just now... The bruises colours were became darker as the blood was started to spread after i've rubbed for her. Hopefully she will get well very soon! How i wish i can also rub for her tml and sunday, but i got work! Damn it! Otherwise i can rub for her, and she can get well even more faster! Arghhzz!!

Finally i had brought up all of my courage and did the action that i long wanted to do but dare not to. The feeling was so great, sweet and warm!! I was very happy! I wanted to pass all of the words and feeling toward her from my heart through this. But never ever expect that she would said she feel nothing, and she find that it was fake. The moment when i saw her msg, my heart was cracked. I felt so upset and disappointed. Well, i really don't know what else i could say, except i would continue to improve myself to prove to u. My changes is the greatest prove, action speak louder!

I never ever expect that i could actually talked so much to LD... The feeling was great! Just like talking to my dad, but more conversation than my dad. I really very happy and content by having them with me now... But sad to hear when MM said all this will be the last time? I wonder when can i have all this again?

Early in the morning woke up with the sickening bloody annoying auntie visit!! Did not really wanted to get up from the bed at all!!! Until my phone rang... Medicine was inserted, energy regained and was fully restored! Not relaying on the phone rang to wake me up, but it was just a purely very very very fantastic and unspeakable feeling that can make me totally alive. Don't know why too? Was thinking if no longer receiving this anymore in one day, how would i feel?

Always thinking how am i improve in order to make u even more happy? I'm not good in speaking, not even know how to comfort people. I am extreme slow motion too! It was like the more i wanted to do well with every means, the more of the higher chances it will turn out the other way round!! Is it because of i have not do well enough, or i shouldn't have to take the extra move?

Purposely moved to a corner of the shop that can be able to peek through directly of the store to see u, thinking of even u might not be able to see me, but i am already very happy and satisfied to be able to see u. Even if it was from a distance. Just like that time when i was on the escalator and i saw u from downstair, i was already very contented.

Never ever thought of joining in the party, it was totally an exception! I would not have joined them if i did not bumped onto them. I also just found out of the celebration only.

The celebration was great, but i was faking myself with my facial expression. Never ever thought of and wanted to disappoint and make cross u. If i knew, i would have bear with it by not peeking at u and not asking u to join along. I really find myself so stupid and naive! Why would i thinking of shortage of a voice when i was sitting down there?!! And will it be prefertly if the voice appear at there? If i would have think of all this, everything would be avoided!!!

I hate the failure of myself... Its torturing.......

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The white colour christmas limited edition Care Bear...



I just bought it today at More than words during my lunch break... I am sooo happy!!! At last i've bought it home!! The discounted price was $16.95, otherwise the original price was $29.95.

My Care bears family... I loves them!!! ^_^




I wonder when can i get to see MM again...? It will be a very long long month for me... humptz....

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Happy birthday to my dear Sis!!!
My daring nephew fell down and knocked onto his head!! Now there was a blue back on his forehead! My heart was so pain especially when he cried badly last night when my sis rub his head with the cooked egg. Haiz!!!

Yesterday was a super boring and tiring day for me!! I just rolled and rotten at home for the whole afternoon! Around 4pm then took my ever first meal for the whole afternoon! Early in the morning being woke by my sis to go and cut hair together. In the end i sitted down there like a fool for one hour! Somemore i still got driving lesson at 2pm! Around 1.25pm then started to do mine!! In the end i rushed back like hell! They should have do mine first since i just wanted to trim my hair, and my sis's hair would take longer! Really fed up! Next time i shall not wait for my sis anymore! Otherwise we still have to wait for the one to finish first before to do for us!!

My privacy actually asked me for dinner, but in the end i still turned her down. I just don't wanna feel like doing anything, don't know why? I simply felt that i was like missed out something! I may even feel terrible even i don't go ahead! Around evening i headed down to USQ after my shower! And yah! I went to find mummy, otherwise i don't know when i still can get to see her!!!

I was happy to see her, but upset and feel very boring when i left them. Felt that the time with her are so short and limited! I did not enjoyed the supper with my family at all!

Today was a damn bad day for me!! I was really pissed off with what she had said to me on the phone! As if taken me as Fei Wu Li Yong, when need me, call me. Otherwise throw me at aside! What the F!!! What made my fire grew even more big and fierce is, when i told her i went for my break, she did not even wanna bother about me!!! Fine, then this will be the last time i talk to her! Since she don't take me as a staff, then what for i still take her as the in charge for the day?! My tolerantion can be very good and patience, but there is a also a limit! If being too much and keep provoke me, then that's it !!!! I won't give in!!!

Lucky mummy came and look for me just now, otherwise i dare not imagine how firece and hot my fire could be! I had been pressing my anger, i really can't stand it! Previously when TKN made me angry, she bought me a pink colour "Love" care bear to pacify me. This time round she bought me a green colour "Luck" and a purple colour "Harmony" care bears for me!!! I just simply feel at ease and happy when i look at them! Now i have another two new bears to accompany me! I'm so happy!!! I wonder what does the white colour care bear represent as?? I am really very curious...

I shouldn't have eat the minced mee just now at j8 basement, if not i will have a bigger appetite to eat with MM and LD. Anyway the curry crab is really very delicious, especially the sauce, and the crab meat was very fresh! I guess LTB will definitely love it! She must have develop a little bit of love for MM already? By seeing her reaction just now when MM came to my house, i could feel? It was so funny! Luckily i never being beaten up by MM when showed her my room! LOLS

Arghhhzzz!!! I am really very fed up with my bro!!! He was damn irritating and unreasonable!!! I just simply hate it especially when he used all those stupid nonsense to find fault and threaten me!!! IDIOT LOR!!! Somemore my mum still scolded me becos of this!!! What the hell?! What's wrong today huh?! Why everything seem like not right and it was like against on me?

Just now when i was talking to mummy on the phone, LL called. After finished talking with LL, i immdietately called back to mummy. Who know she did not pick up? I guess she must be sleeping? I still thought of talking to her.... Sighz... I feel so upset and disappointed... Anyway, she must be tired already throughout the whole day... I really feel like punching on something in order to throw out my anger! ARGHHHHZZZZ!!!