Early in the morning woke up with the sickening bloody annoying auntie visit!! Did not really wanted to get up from the bed at all!!! Until my phone rang... Medicine was inserted, energy regained and was fully restored! Not relaying on the phone rang to wake me up, but it was just a purely very very very fantastic and unspeakable feeling that can make me totally alive. Don't know why too? Was thinking if no longer receiving this anymore in one day, how would i feel?

Always thinking how am i improve in order to make u even more happy? I'm not good in speaking, not even know how to comfort people. I am extreme slow motion too! It was like the more i wanted to do well with every means, the more of the higher chances it will turn out the other way round!! Is it because of i have not do well enough, or i shouldn't have to take the extra move?

Purposely moved to a corner of the shop that can be able to peek through directly of the store to see u, thinking of even u might not be able to see me, but i am already very happy and satisfied to be able to see u. Even if it was from a distance. Just like that time when i was on the escalator and i saw u from downstair, i was already very contented.

Never ever thought of joining in the party, it was totally an exception! I would not have joined them if i did not bumped onto them. I also just found out of the celebration only.

The celebration was great, but i was faking myself with my facial expression. Never ever thought of and wanted to disappoint and make cross u. If i knew, i would have bear with it by not peeking at u and not asking u to join along. I really find myself so stupid and naive! Why would i thinking of shortage of a voice when i was sitting down there?!! And will it be prefertly if the voice appear at there? If i would have think of all this, everything would be avoided!!!

I hate the failure of myself... Its torturing.......