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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!!! Lols...

21Nov09

Photo that we've taken at Suntec City Newyork Newyork...







It's has been a long time we last meet...
I'm glad to see u guys last night! Especially those surprised and jokes, i feel so happy! Never ever had such a cool and big number candles before on my cake in my life before (eh, sound like very sua ku siaz... -,-). Lols!!! Really thank a lot!! Hope to meet up with u guys soon!!!

Photo that we've taken at Bugis Yi Pin Chuan Steamboat...







After my dinner with my ITE frens, i headed down to United Square straightly. When i've reached the store, the staffs told me that MM went out already. I was wondering where mummy has been, don't know why i was afraid that she would left me behind? Silly right... I immediately took out my handphone and called her. She told me that she'll be coming back soon, so while waiting for her i went to the toysrus at upstair to buy Thomas train for my darling and also fix his thomas from mummy.

When i was at the escalator toward the upstair, surprisingly i saw mummy when i looked down! She was carrying the cake walking toward to the store. 当时的我打从心理觉得很幸福，很开心也很甜……从来从来都没有过这种这般幸福的感觉……

I know Mm is worrying me get closer with patient goh. I admit that i ever had some good feel toward him, but all this was already over. I also never contact him anymore, except occasionally we will sms when he sms me. That's all! Other than that i will not contact him. I am already a grown up, if i will have to do a thing, than i will have to bear with all the consequences. I will not allow myself to step wrong any move. I don't wanna make anybody that cares about me to worry.

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22Nov09

As usual, I automatic woke up again in the morning around 11plus and i saw mummy's msg. Frankly speaking, i am not angry or blaming anybody for the loss of the dvd. Who know it might be fated that i still could not get to view the dvd in the end?
After i've read mummy's msg, i woke up from my bed and went to took my house phone and called her to explain. I don't want her to get mistaken of anything. I admit that i am kinda pissed off that has to be so secretly of the photo that we had taken.
I know u want me to avoid those unnecessary trouble, and i am alright after throwing out those words. Especially after chatting with u on the phone, i feel so energtic!

When running down to toward to the car, i really did not noticed that MM was actually standing at one side waiting for me. I was guessing she must be standing at the shop there peeking/waiting for me? Cos she keep disturbing me that she has been to upstair peeking at me, she quickly came down before i came out of my house.

LD brought us to the Sakura Buffet at Commonwealth Wood for dinner. I've never ever been to there before, not even heard before this place. The restaurant was located at half hill up there, the atmosphere was great.

I was happy and touching when heard LD said about his first impression and his feeling toward me. And its same goes to MM, my feeling toward you two are the same too. Both of you are just like my father and mother, i will use my entire life to filial you all just like my dad and mum.

MM was the one and only that could made me open up myself so much, telling her so many things regarding of myself. Toward her i have nothing to hid, just simply feel very relieved. When LD went to take food, i suddenly brought up my own stuff. Don't know why i suddenly feel that my eyes was so watery especially when the more i talked. I feel so emotional, but in fact i was very happy and touching for all their doing for me. 感觉就好像我在遗失后被寻回？

After the big feast LD and MM brought me to the Mount Faber Park to see the nightscape, just cos of i said i never heard and been to this place b4. This is my first and ever most happy birthday that i ever had... MM and LD are my best and ever present... Thank a lot... I love you guy... Really cannot imagine my life without you two, i think i will die!

My heart is like being stabbed when mummy told me that she was just KN's replacment... How would i ever take her as her replacment?! NO! NEVER EVER!!! NOBODY CAN EVER REPLACMENT MY MM!!! Both of MM and KN are totally two different issues!!! They can never ever put together!!! I am very clearly with myself, if without MM, current me will not be exisiting. I'm not trying to relay her on waking me up in the morning, i just don't know since when it has become a habit and comfort to me by hearing her voice?

I really don't know how am i going to make MM to believe me? Perhap it was because of i've been telling so many lies ever since i was in Primary six due to my unspeakable difficulties. So now the retribution has come to me! I feel extreme terrible and upset... How i wish that i can never ever get to know Kn!!! I hate her for causing all this!!! If anything happen, i will never ever forgive myself!!! =~(